Thursday, January 29, 2009

First free child night in a month ....

Yay ..... love them thou ...but

So as the title suggests Mr T and I are home alone.

We're going to sneak into the shower soon, oops maybe too much information, have our shower and head to bed.

I know it was thurs, but I didn't weigh in today had too many things on my mind.

I worked right through today and it has been a long one.


I have work assessments that I have to get in by the weekend. I have business things that I have to get sorted by the weekend. It's my birthday next week and I have to get things done by Tuesday. Kids back at school Tuesday. Yay. Have a lot of deadlines but they will be met. Just need a little bit of time.

Work issues: One of my Trustees hubbies died yesterday. We are in mourning. I have to work on protocol. Has quite a few complications attached to it. Both of them are very prominent people in our community.

Home: Lots of things happening, some good others well I will post about later. Have some isses that I would welcome feedback on.

All over though I'm still in control. A very nice feeling. I'm sad that I havent't been able to comment on peoples blogs.

Jaxx: Looking forward to catching up next week.

Jen: You are one fantastic mum and I sympathise with you in so many ways.

Rach: Keep on doing whatever you are doing and never give up.

Chris: I know I'm slack, but you are and always will be one of the most fantastic people I know. I'm so glad that I've met you.

Lynise: Keep on going girl. You are one fantastic lady.

Me: I've known you like forever. I love you. You are awesome. I hope K is better soon and it is only a 24 hr virus.

M: I don't know what to say. Just hang on in their. Love you.

Janene: Fantastic girl. Way to go. Keep it up. Loving your journey.

Anne: You're fantastic. Would love to meet you this year.

God there are so many people that I would love to say something too. Margaret. Yes will get there.

Lyn: What can I say, you have my heart right now. I love ya chick. Be strong.

Wanna: Yes, it's true I'll track you down in kiwiland for scotchaclock.

OMG. I know I've missed a lot out. I'll respond tomorrow.

Mandy: Love ya chick.

But jeez. Mr T is doing a striptease.... so I've gotta go.

OOps Mr T is wondering if worried that someone might have there webcam on .....

Ciao


Jules: No your hard times but you are one tough chick. You will survive. I know it!!!

OMG. Mr T is doing a striptease. Now he says he hopes its not on webcam!!!

Betta go make sure he gets in the shower.

Last call. Lynda, glad you had an awesome anniversay. Very,very jealous.

For everyone that's reading this, I would just like to say that I met Mr T through the internet. It was the best call I ever made.....

Gotta go shower. Ciao


PS: May regret this post in the morning.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Slow and Easy

Apologies

Before I start I just have to apologise to anyone that tried to get in my blog over the weekend and couldn’t. I had to quickly disable it as Krystal and her friend wanted to go on the computer and we were going to be out so it was the quickest and easiest solution to stop them reading my blog.

Alright. I’m in a pretty good headspace at the moment. Calm, relaxed and not stressed. I’m starting to nut out a plan with regards to my eating, exercising and general life and lifestyle attitudes using nothing more than simple commonsense.

You know after living inside this body for fortyplus something years I realised the one who knows whats best for my body, my health is …… ME!!!!!. I know, I know – I’m a bloody rocket scientist. A natural born genius.

Well you know what – we all are. Because most of us know exactly what we should or shouldn’t be doing. We’ve probably all read that many weight loss books and topics that we could probably write our own book.

I know that I can’t eat too many carbs – the next day I feel as bloated as hell and yuk and I hate myself. Boo hoo. But I still keep doing it.

I know what foods to eat plenty of and what to eat in moderation. But I still make the wrong choices.

I know that breakfast is important as it kickstarts your metabolism for the day. But I really struggle to eat early in the morning. I can’t do it.

I know to chew my food slowly, helps with the digestion. But sometimes I forget or I’m in too much of a hurry.

I know it’s important to exercise not only for weightloss but also healthwise. The truth is the moment any routine that I put in place for exercise is disrupted, the exercise goes out the door.

I know that portion sizes are another culprit. So why have they got bigger over the last few years.

So I do know what I need to do to lose weight. So why don’t I do it. Probably because I’m impatient. I want results right now. I look at the whole picture and try to do everything all at once. When I fail in one area it starts off a domino effect and the good intentions and hard work come falling down.

So I guess I start looking at the smaller picture. Just a couple of small things at a time. I need to make this easy for me – not hard. Easy with small successes that will keep me focused and motivated.

So this week I’m going to lower my carb intake. Not cut it out. Just lower it. And I’m also going to spend 15 - mins each day after work either gardening or doing “extra” housework.



“Slow and easy wins the race”

Friday, January 23, 2009

Down again ....

I managed another 500 gm loss this week. Was 400 but then I waited about 10 mins, had a pee and lost another 100. Whatever works ....

With this hot weather I'm craving salads and grilled meat and staying away from the carbs in the evening. I'm doing my level best to get the water down. Always keeping a glass on my desk and when I go out to the loo I try to down another glass. I really have to be conscious of making myself drink water. It's not easy.

Today I'm exhausted. I've had a pretty full on week. Been home late every night but Monday. I finished work around 8 last night and ended up not sleeping very well at all. I don't think my eyes have opened properly at all today. Thank god it's a long weekend.

Friday night means card night. I hope I get my second wind when I get home otherwise I'm going to be yawning my head off for the rest of the night.

Krystal's birthday on Sunday so we will be heading over to Bayfair for some more shopping. Not sure what else is planned. At the moment I can't see past a good nights sleep.

Sorry for a boring post, I did plan on writing something bright and cheery but I'm in danger of falling asleep on my keyboard.

So on that note I'm going to sneak off home early.

Have a great weekend all.

Ciao

Monday, January 19, 2009

Going down ....

Lost 500 gms last Thursday - that was on a TOM week so pleased about that. Friday night was card night and a few wines saw it edge back up a bit, but sensible eating and plenty of hard work outside over the weekend has seen it dip a bit more. As we totally thrashed the guys at 500 it was worth it.

Krystal's 14th birthday this coming Sundayt. Our present to her was to fly her friend up from Wellington and stay for a week. They haven't seen each other for two years since one moved to Wellington and the other to Whangarei. We picked Lia up at the airport on Saturday. After the first hug and a few tears they stood there staring at each other other with their hands over their mouths. It took a while for them to register just how much they've both grown.

Had a busy but relaxed weekend. Everythings on track and everybody is happy. What a nice change. Not to mention two long weekends coming up one after the other.

If I get a chance tonight will post some photos.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

The final countdown ....

That’s what this year is going to be. Positive thinking.

In three weeks, it will be my birthday. I was hoping to have lost 5 kgs by then but a miracle will need to occur I think. Tom showed up yesterday and that is reflected on the scales. I will be lucky to see a loss tomorrow but that’s not going to deter me. In 3 weeks I will be a lot lighter and well on my way to a better me.

So I was thinking the other day about what a 5 kg loss would look like on me. Well first I reckon/hope it’s going to come off my face. It's a lot rounder and not to mention that extra bag of sag that hangs from under my jaw and connects to my neck. EEEWWW. Whatever – it’s gotta go. So that’s gotta be the first place. Cause I said so.

The next has gotta be the boobies. I’ve been checking to see if I’ve got some sort of a valve hiding underneath one of them and sneaky Mr T has been using the air pump to pump them up every night while I’ve been asleep. (Trust me, if he could - he would) But no. Wish it was only that easy. But I do know from past experience that is definitely where the weight is going to come off.

The 5 kg after that I’m not too sure because my body has changed shape over the last decade so it will be anyone’s guess.

I’m going great guns at the mo. Eating well and drinking heaps of water. For the first time in a long time I’m really excited about losing weight.

And guess what …..

THE SNACK BOX DOESN’T LIVE HERE ANYMORE!!!

Ha, ha. It’s gone. Been evicted. Never to rear it’s ugly head and tempt anymore.

Good riddance to bad rubbish. Literally.

VICTORY IS MINE!!!!!

Catch ya later.

Ciao

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Shopping, gardening and blogging ...

I've had a great week. I've been shopping, to the beach, done some gardening, playing cards and managed to catch up with two amazing ladies.

Wednesday we went over to Bayfair and Krystal and I managed to ditch the guys and we hit the shops. We all managed to come home with some goodies so everyone was happy. We thought we would head to the beach but it was far too hot and we didn't have a brolly so we only stayed for about twenty minutes half an hour. I was amazed at the people lying on the beach with no hats or shade. It was way too hot and I could feel the sun burning the top of my head.

Had a productive day on Friday - did a bit of gardening and managed to get the compost on the driveway garden. It's a bit stinky though. That night my girlfriend and her partner came for dinner and we ended up playing 500 till well after midnight. I am ashamed to say that the guys won. There was some shocking table talk going on tho. We all had a good time and plenty of laughs so we've decided we're going to do it on a weekly basis. So from now on friday nights are card nights.

Have been thinking about my blog lately. Mainly about how hard it is to do a post when you haven't done one for a while. I know when other bloggers don't post for a while I start wondering what they're up to and hope they're okay. Even though you haven't met them you start to miss them. Most of our blogs were started to help us through our weight loss journey but along the way other things slip in and before you know it our everyday lives become entwined with our blogs. We now not only share our weight loss successes or disappointments with each other but also our daily lives, the hard times, the good times and the celebrations. We are a family, special friends who support each other without prejudice or judgement.

So with all that in mind I'm going to post every two or three days even if it's just a short paragraph. I'm also going to try (fingers crossed) to post more photos.


So this is the box that my chrissie pressie was in. Had to take a pic before it ended on the trailer. I really have a wonderful husband and I love him to bits.



I've made many friends through blogging and lots of friendships. On Thursday I headed over to Tauranga to visit Lynise. I told Mr T I'd be home around 4. (ha, ha what a joke). Once we started talking we couldn't stop. Lynise is a wonderful, warm, bubbly young woman. We could of kept on talking all night. When I realised it was 4.20 it still took me another hour to leave lol. I'm sure it won't be too long before we catch up again. We already know what's at the top of the list to talk about. Thanks for a great day Lynise.

I remembered my camera to take the obligatory blogger pic. But after a couple of attempts we decided we'd take individual shots.

For someone who didn't like having her photo taken she takes a lovely photo.



Wish I could say the same.




Yesterday Jaxx came over for a visit. We headed down to the garden centre and had lunch at the cafe there and settled in for a good yak for a couple of hours. It was awesome. Then when we got home we settled in for some talking and again the time disappeared so fast so I asked Jaxx to stay for dinner and she said yes.



Thanks for coming over yesterday Jaxx. It was a great day. Mr T said for you to bring Boyd over real soon.

My son and his wife also came out for dinner. I haven't seen him before christmas so it was nice to catch up with them both.

Nick and Krystal playing cricket ...



Josh bowling ...





My D-I-L Janelle



So now it's Sunday and the last day of my holidays. Tomorrow it's back to work. But I'm rested and ready to attack 2009 head on. Seeing Lynise and Jaxx this week has only made me more determined to get on top of my weight loss and tomorrow I'm going to start living how I plan to continue.

Right, got some flowers to plant and then we're taking the kids for a drive somewhere.

Ciao

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

2009 ... the year for change

Well Happy New Year all.

I know I've been quiet but I've taken some time out to "reboot" my engines. Heading towards christmas I was very close to a burn out. I've had a couple of meltdowns and some wake up calls.

For the most part I'm glad to see the back end of 2008. I would have to say it was one of the worst years of my life.

Only two highlights happened.

Mr T and I got married and had a lovely honeymoon in Rarotonga.

We won our custody suit.

The rest of the year was consumed with worry, stress, anxiety and kids!!!!!

And that's all I'm going to say!!!!!

Christmas day we went out for lunch with Col's family. It was the first time I've never cooked. It was lovely. Very stress free. Josh went to his mum's and then we began our kidsfree days.

Jaxx was going to come over on the Saturday but unfortunately a young friend passed away so we postponed the visit. Instead we decided to go fishing. Had a couple of really lovely days on the boat. So calm and warm and sunny. Perfect. We even managed to catch about 15 fish so we were eating off fresh snapper and gurnard for a few days.

We had a few more days at home just catching up on things around the house then we headed up to Auckland for a night of r & r. We got a lovely room at Sky City. We went down to the casino and had a play, had dinner and then relaxed in our lovely room for the evening. It was fantastic and just what we needed. A bit of luxury. Next morning we went for a walk around the shops and had a wander down to the viaduct and had a bit of a drool over the boats moored down there.

We headed up to Whangarei later in the afternoon, checked into a motel - bit of a comedown from the night before, got changed and went out for dinner down by the marina. Our last night of peace. Perfect way to end it.

Krystal got dropped off at the motel the next morning and we headed back home. We were dreading it cause the day before we had seen the cars backed up for 20km from Wellsford with everyone heading home. But we were lucky. Got back home around 4 after picking Josh up and so here we are - all together again.

Have spent the last couple of days cleaning the outside of the house and the concrete. Looks amazing. Well worth the hard work. Tomorrow we're heading over to Bayfair for a look around and maybe a walk around the Mount. Will pop back over on Thursday for a catch up with Lynise and maybe Jaxx.

So that's my wrap up for the last couple of weeks.

As I said 2009 is the year for change. When we were out for christmas lunch Col took some photos. What a wake up call. I looked so fat. I couldn't believe it cause I actually thought I looked okay when I left the house. My face is huge. I have the photos, I won't show you now - I'll save them for when I've lost some weight.

Because weight is what I'm going to lose this year. I feel miserable. When we went out to lunch, Col's sisters and sil had all lost weight and looked fab. I felt like a whale. I've had my wallow in self pity but the only way I can change this is by DOING something about it. So I am. I will be 47 in about 4 weeks. I want to lose between 3 - 5 kg by then. I can do this I know I can. If I just stop procrastinating and stop making excuses I can. I don't have half the stresses of last year on my shoulders. I have no excuse. I can make this time for me. I just need to pull that little bit extra out for the first week to get me back on track.

I'm giving up my sauv blanc, not forever, but not as much as I have been. As much as I enjoy it, it's not doing me any favours. We were drinking nearly every night. So much stress. Not good. So that was another wake up call for me. I don't want this to become a habit. I have to look after myself.

2009 I'm going to turn my life around in more ways than one. I'm not just going to lose weight, but I'm going to become fit and healthy. I am going to maintain a positive attitude and I'm going to do it one stage at a time. We have plans this year to travel and spend more quality time together instead of always worrying about one thing or another.

After the past few weeks I'm finally feeling positive and back in control. Helloooo 2009, I'm ready for you.

I've finally downloaded some photos so I'll say ciao and leave you with these.

This is Josh's favourite pastime. He loves playing army.



Josh and I made a volcano for his school project. Turned out better than what I thought.





We came across a school of barracutta that kept us quite busy for about an hour. They put up quite a fight. Every time we put our line down one of the buggars took it. They are ugly and got vicious looking teeth.




However, the gurnard is a very pretty fish and tasty too. Reminds me of a butterly.




Relaxing in our hotel room ...





Yes, I look a bit better after I've done my hair and face.



Mr T ....




We wouldn't mind a boat like this,



Or this ....




A couple of weeks before christmas we thought we'd better get the pool ready for summer it was looking a wee bit green ...




And now it looks like this. Took these tonight. The kids together again. No fighting - so far.



Krystal has grown so much. We see the changes every couple of months.



Even the lad is growing.




And last but not least. My chrissie present from my darling Mr T. He was absolutely adamnant I wasn't getting any outdoor furniture until the deck was done.




Never underestimate a woman I say.

Goodnight.

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