Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Signing out for 2010 ...

Tomorrow I'm on holiday.

Thank God for that.

It has been the worst of years ..... but it's gotten better slowly.

This year, I lost my way. Bogged down with so many things.

But I have survived.

Next year will be different.

I have many things planned. Next year I will turn 49. That means I will have 12 months to turn everything around. The good thing is - I already have. I didn't want to wait till the new year to make a difference. I started straight away.

Next year I will come back with a new resolve and a new purpose.


But I will leave you with some photos. Finally found the right cord.

Tapu - took the girls up for a new experience ....

The girls shelling the oysters..




Mr T with a couple of snappers that the girls caught. A new experience for them.




We had a family day out at the lake and all Lucas could do was eat ...










Mr T got up on waterskis for the first time in 20 years ...



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He taught the kids how to drive the boat ... they all had a good time



Then it was home for a barbie ...















Kayla, Aunty Janelle is getting clucky, maybe another grandbaby soon?????







Our lovely new addition Kayla Rose.



Tomorrow we will be loading up the car and boat and heading off. The weather will be beautiful. It really will be. We will be home before New Year and I will do my best to be a better blogger.

Wishing you all a safe, stressfree and peaceful christmas and new year and lots of love.

Mrs T signing out for 2011.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Focussed

I've got my eye on the prize and I know I can do it.

Another awesome day yesterday. I'm finding my tummy must be shrinking because I don't have to eat much before I feel full and I'm stopping when I get to that point and leaving food on my plate. Maybe it's drinking all that water.

Next Thursday we are heading up to Tapu for a week of camping and fishing - just the two of us. I am so looking forward to that. A week of fresh fish and seafood - I can't go wrong. A time of no stress just peace and relaxing.

I haven't done one bit of christmas shopping and I'm not worried. I'll do it when I get back when all the sales are on.

All of sudden I've seemed to come alive again. Maybe its because I know that I'll be on holiday very soon. But I seem to have destressed and feel a lot more relaxed. I love coming home and spending time outside. It's a wonderful feeling. Even more wonderful that it's going to be around for another 3 months. Bliss.

Have an awesome day all.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

My before photo ....

I've found my before photo and its hideous.

This was taken at the end of November when we hosted a barbecue at the workshop for AAPNZ.

I was about 183lbs here and having a real bad hair day.





This would have to be my highest weight ever.

Yesterday I weighed in at 176lbs. That's on a Monday too right after the weekend.

I've started the shrink process and you'll notice I've switched back to weighing in pounds. I was 142lbs when I met Mr T. That's what I want to be again. But for now my next mini goal is to get into the 160's.

I'm discovering that water really is my friend, I'm trying to drink 3 litres a day and so is Greek yoghurt. It really curbs the hunger pains. Especially when you add a couple of strawberries finely chopped to it.

More photos to come,I hope. (Found the wrong cord) Otherwise I'll be needing a new camera.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Found it ......

It was in the drawer after all. Now I’ll be able to do a photo update. I’ve got photos of our new baby girl.

I’ve found a new blog. It’s Ms Bitchcakes blog and she is amazing. I love the way she writes, I love the way she looks (vintage) very glam. She’s very inspiring and talks sense. In fact I don’t know how she manages to do everything she does.

She’s inspired me in many ways.

We’re both 5’2” and have the same body shape. From her photos I can see how my body will change as I start to lose weight. Mind you she does quite a bit of exercise. But who knows maybe I can get excited about that too.

Anyhow things are good. I’m feeling the best I have in a longtime. I’m about to have my first weekend without having to do anything but what I want. No rushing. Oh what a feeling. We’ll get the pool filled and I’ll make a huge dent in my gardening. Those weeds are really bugging me.

I can’t believe this time two weeks from now I’ll be at the beach (no kids) and on holiday. I honestly can’t believe it. How the hell did Christmas sneak up on me like that. For us it’s going to another stressfree one too. Fabulous!!!!!!!

Ok I’m going to sign off now and let my weekend begin.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Fourteen months and counting down ....

I'm tired of all the excuses and feeling sorry for myself. It's really time to get over it.

I'm tired of feeling guilty about not losing weight.

I'm tired of feeling bloaty.

I'm tired of having no energy.

It's time to get over it and starting making it REAL.

It's time to turn the clock around and stop bullshitting myself.

It's time to stop saying this is too hard, I'll start next week, I'll start next year yadda, yadda, yadda. Make everyday count. So what if I stuff up the next day. Start again. So what if I have four great days followed by three bad days. Cause if I just give myself permission to "eat what I want" until then, that means I have an extra 1,3,5 ... to lose that I didn't have to.

So I mean business and Christmas isn't an excuse either. It starts right now.

Now all I have to do is find the camera cord so I can download my photos.

Can anyone tell me where a man would put a camera cord@#$%

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Kayla Rose has arrived ...

Our new baby granddaughter made her arrival on Saturday. At 3.30pm. Weighing 6lb 14oz. Naturally she's an adorable wee thing. And according to Poppa Col babies aren't always that cute when they're first born but she is. You can tell he's one proud granddaddy.

Unfortunately for me I couldn't be up there at the hospital as we were hosting a christmas party at our workshop so I sent Mr T up instead. I must post some photos. The only problem is with moving all our furniture around to have our carpet put down I don't know where he's put the cable for the phone so I can't download.

Life has been really busy and chaotic. I'm glad its the end of November and I got all my functions and everything out of the way. No more christmas do's it's lovely. No more stress - hopefully.

I'm slowly starting to concentrate on me and Mr T now. It's been a bloody hard year - so many ups and downs. Time to take stock of everything and lose the stress.

My weight is down by about 1 kg since my last post. So you can see I haven't really been focussed or trying. But yet again the fridge is stocked up with lovely fresh fruit and veges. I concentrating more on protein and veges at the moment and cutting back on carbs. I just need something to kick start me off again. The heat last weekend nearly bowled me over and the more weight I lose the better I'll be able to deal with it. I'm thinking about using a protein shake. Can anyone recommend a good one.

Hopefully I won't be away for so long next time.

Ciao

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

All because I’ve been drinking loads of this:




And eating lots of this:





When you can work with a clear mind things don’t seem impossible. I know I can do this. More importantly I really want this.

I wasn’t organised this morning and didn’t have anything planned for my lunch today. Then I remembered finding my microwave omelette maker at the weekend so I grabbed it and some eggs and that was that problem solved. I ate that 3 hours ago and I’m still feeling quite full.

Sometimes inspiration can come from within too. I’ve flicked back over some of my blog when I’ve been doing really well and seeing the photos. It’s not reading about someone else’s success but your own and confirming that yes I can do it. Yes, that’s where I want to be again.



Not the greatest of photos but me on my 46th birthday.




I can't do a link but this is so inspiring. Check it out.


http://266-twosixtysix.blogspot.com/2010/07/now-its-personal.html

Monday, November 8, 2010

Another week, another new beginning

Well, now that the week from hell is done and dusted maybe I can spend a little bit of time focusing on getting myself back on the right track and mindset.

Normally I can handle whatever comes my way no matter what but lately just too much and I could feel myself shutting down and losing control. I just badly need a holiday and for once, just once the powers that be, be nice to me and Mr T and everything go smoothly instead of having to deal with things at 100 kmph.

This time last year I joined WW’s and lost over 5 kgs before xmas. I needed to lose more but those 5 kgs did help. I still have my folder with all the recipes etc plus luckily I have my weekly food plans which I’d written down. So I’ve got a place to start over again. Hopefully I can replicate that and keep the numbers going down. I’ve just read Rachels post and wow what a great loss she had. I’m going to make water my friend too.

A positive thing is that I got my new glasses on Friday. I had no choice really. The other ones fell off my head and I accidently knelt on them and broke the arm. Black insulation tape is not a good look either. So I bit the bullet and went for an eye exam and Mr T and I picked a few frames to try (which I ran past the girls at work too) and viola now I can see properly again. Just over the weekend I’ve noticed I’m not squinting as much later in the day. So hopefully that will go a long way to stop me from feeling so tired as well.

We spent the weekend ripping up the carpet in the lounge, dining room and the hallway. Lordy I have never seen so much dust. But boy, what gorgeous matai floors I have. And polished to boot as well. But after cleaning them and waking up this morning to a cooler house (and an echo) I think no, I definitely prefer carpet. It’s better anyway with the grandbabies. But I’ll enjoy them anyway for the next week.

So here I am back again. Another week, another new beginning. But a better frame of mind.

Ciao

Friday, November 5, 2010

The Good, the Bad and the Ugly ...

The Good …..
Well I am still here. Had a great long weekend up at Tapu. The weather was absolutely gorgeous. We caught 28 snapper. Had seafood galore. It was awesome.

Only 17 more days to grandbabies imminent arrival. How exciting. She’s due on the 22nd and it’s Poppa’s birthday on the 16th . She’ll make a fabulous birthday pressie.

The Bad ….
Our Labour weekend was a success in that we had a lot of fun and lots of fishing. But what happened at the end wasn’t.

Our last trip in to the boat ramp was chaotic. Everyone was heading in at the same time. There were over 20 boats queued up and another 15 or so waiting out at sea (like us) to come in. I sent a txt back to the camp to let them know we would be late and looked up in time to see flames coming out of the motor. I was seriously considering jumping overboard. Thankfully Mr T sorted it out. But in his panic to start the auxiliary motor (because we were drifting) he flooded it. Luckily another boatie came to our rescue and towed us in. One way of jumping the queue I guess. Only as he was towing us in he ran over a rock and almost capsized his boat. Freaky. We made it back to camp a couple of hours later. That was drama no.1.

Drama no. 2 came when we were traveling home. Just outside of Thames there was a bloody noise. Sounded like a flipping helicopter landing on the roof. The short version was the wheel nuts sheered off and we nearly lost the wheel and ultimately the boat. Lucky for us this happened next door to a Mobil garage station at Kopu and they very kindly let us lock the boat in their garage. We were very grateful as we had half our camping gear in the boat. We only had to worry about how to get the boat home. Mr T was able to sort this out the next day thank goodness.


I’m way too stressed. I’ve been full on busy and everything is piling up. Some days have been a real struggle and I’m feeling physically exhausted. I’m hoping for some of it to ease off. Real soon.

I spoke to my sister last week and she told me that my mum isn’t very good. So I went over on Saturday to see her. As soon as my sister left mum told me that she’s booked her funeral, she took me through the whole service, she explained her wishes to me regarding the will and her estate. I was punch shocked. I was trying to be strong but crying at the same time. My mum has to be organised. She always has. Her way of dealing with everything. In a way it’s like she has the last say. This all came about after she ended up in hospital about three months ago. She was having trouble breathing as she had so much fluid on her lungs. She got scared then and decided she was going to finalise her matters which she did. She changed her will and paid for her funeral. Last week the Doctor told her that her lungs aren’t going to get any better. Even the warmer weather is not going to help. In a lot of ways, I think mum is just sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m still coming to terms with this and having the odd weepy moment. She has told me that she’s not planning on going anywhere till after xmas anyway cause she’s bought all her presents.

The Ugly is me …..
That’s how I’m feeling.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Going Fishing .....

Heading off on Friday up to Tapu to spend some time camping and fishing. Hoping to bring a bin full of snapper home.

There's about 20 or so of us going. After hearing about me raving about all the seafood up there the girls in my admin group decided that they were coming too. So it should be a great weekend. A very enjoyable and relaxing one too.

After spending the last four weeks with furniture in hallways, dust and so forth around my house all the painting and wallpering is now done. (Until it's the kitchens turn anyway.) At the moment the house is pretty much a white out. But it looks big and clean and it's lovely. I've lived with the 70's "brown" look for ages. The carpet is going down on the 15th of next month. I just won't know myself. I'm looking forward to adding some colour to it now.

I cooked a chicken stirfry last night for dinner and it was yum. There was enough leftover for my lunch today too. My plan at the moment is to cut out carbs at dinner time and what portion sizes. This isn't a big ask. I could eat a plate full of low point salad with some protein no worries. It's just a lot easier to go down though when the weather is a heck of a lot warmer.

Last night I had this crazy idea that I would get up early and go for a brisk walk. However after waking a few times during the night when the alarm went off I opted to hit snooze and pull the blankets up around my ears. I know this is bad Jen, and I will get there promise.

I have made a deal with myself to look after me a lot better. When your legs are getting hairy and your eyebrows are messy you know you are neglecting yourself. By helping myself on the outside it will make me feel better on the inside and help get me into that right frame of mind.

Wouldn't that be nice.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Been a bad, bad girl ...

I'm not doing myself any favours. My weight is just see-sawing at the moment and I'm maintaining my last weigh in result give or take a a couple of hundred grams.

I've been feeling chunky the past couple of weeks and the only person I have to blame is myself. My fridge is full of lovely healthy food but when I get home at night I just can't be bothered cooking.

I also said I'd start walking once daylight saving arrived. Well how many times have I been. Zip, nada. Not a one.

I know what it's like to feel 10, 15 or even 20kgs lighter. It's bloody awesome.

I'm overweight and unfit.

So Mrs T, a lot more effort on your part is required. Thank you very much.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

yesterday was a great day ...

Don't you feel great when you do everything you're suppose to and no cheating. Almost righteous, lol.

But it does feel great. So great I'm going to do it again today. This sunshine is giving me happy endorphins and its so much easier to be "righteous" and motivated when those jolly endorphins are about.

Last weekend Mr T and I did something we haven't done for a while. We booked a motel in town for the night to have a "break" away from home and get out of a cycle we'd been in for a while. It was so nice to relax in different surroundings, lazing in the spa pool etc. We caught up with Jackie and David and had a nice dinner in town. Mr T was eyeing up David's stonegrill steak and has decided now that we have to go back so he can try it!!!

Sunday we spent at home cleaning. Lots of it. We're finally making inroads into doing up the house. Not much has happened for quite a while but finally my hallway is finished and we've moved onto the lounge. We've decided to pay someone to do the work and we have a friend who is a semi retired builder and he's doing it for us. Doing a great job too. Everything is moving along quite fast now. He's removed all the textured ceiling in the lounge and dining room and is plastering and sanding at the moment. The downside is all the flippin dust. It's everywhere. I'm just glad it's not triggering any asthma attacks.

Nevermind it will be worth it all in the end. Next week it will be the wallpapering and shortly thereafter the new carpet will go down. Cripes - I won't know myself.

Better get cracking - I've got a full "to do" list today. Will remember to put some batteries in my camera. I just haven't been in the mood to take photos lately.

Have a fab day all and if you're one of those lucky ones who can spend time outside - then I'm very jealous.

Buggar. Just laddered my stockings. Will have to pop out for some wardrobe maintenance. Oh well won't be needing them soon aye.

Monday, October 4, 2010

I've found my way again ...

Thanks hugely to the lovely summer like days we've had since daylight saving began lasst week.

The feeling of coming home from work, opening all the sliders and windows and sitting outside on the deck relaxing before starting dinner is amazing. I can't believe it's made such a huge difference on how I'm thinking.

So anyway the fridge is all stocked up with healthy veges, freezer full of meat and cupboards with all the extra ingredients. I'm all ready to go.

Today's been a good day - Banana for breakfast, a chicken roll with lettuce, tomato and cheese plus chopped apple and yoghurt and dinner is chicken breast with salad and beetroot. I've also totally outdone myself by drinking 7 large glasses of water without even realising it.

I have 7 weeks till I meet my new grand daughter and I want to be a lot lighter by then. I can do it - so long as I don't muck around.

I finally feel like I'm back.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

I've been struggling ....

to find any words to say. Or have any enthusiasm. I feel like everything is on hold. I know this will pass and daylight saving and lots of SUN will do a lot to cure this flat feeling.

My heart aches for Anne and Margaret. May all the little angels watch over you and keep you safe and strong. Lots of love and hugs.








We've all been sick. We thought we'd made it through winter unscathed and then about a month ago Mr T got a bug, then me, then Josh and now Mr T again. It hasn't been nice at all.

Looking forward to daylight saving this weekend. I am over bleak grey skies, rain and wind. From Sunday it is going to be warmer and sunnier - not negotiable - IT WILL BE. Sunday I also start walking. I'm doing the Pink Walk in four weeks. I need to be able to walk and talk at the same time.

My scales need to be shot. I do not like them. I do not like what I see. That's the thanks that I get for putting in a new battery. That's my story and I'm sticking to it

My hallway is finally wallpapered. Fingers crossed I might also get lounge and dining room done and the house carpeted before christmas.

Only 8 1/2 weeks until we meet our grandbaby no.2. Apparently we have to make the most of these last free weekends. We're ready now - we've already set up our nursery.

Tonight Nana and Pop are babysitting their little angel.




He always makes us smile. He's so cutelicious.



He helps chase away the winter blues. And puts a smile on my dial. So does Mr T.

Will be back when I've had a dose of sunshine.

Ciao

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Time Flies ...

Soon it'll be Christmas!!!!



So anyhows there I was happily riding along on my wagon when all of a sudden this flipping humungous boulder appeared out of nowhere. Gave me a big wallop and sent me flying arse over kite and left me wondering what the hell happened. By the time I picked myself up my wagon was waaaay in the distance. So now I'm running like the clappers to catch up and jump back on!!!!!!

Seriously have been a bit naughty. Was in Christchurch most of last week and confess to having a cooked breakfast every morning. Scrambled eggs, mushrooms, tomatoes, hash browns, baked beans and sausages. Bad but very yummy. Also a bit too much vino was imbibed on the Friday night. Margaret can back me up on that one.

I'm home now, polished my halo, did a very healthy grocery shop and working hard to redeem myself.

Fingers crossed we can reverse some of the damage before Thursday.


Last Sunday it was this little man's first birthday.



He didn't want to miss anything.





Nan and Pop got him a jolly jumper because honestly every kid needs one of these.


He was tired and wouldn't go to sleep. So after getting the hang of it, the jolly jumper worked it's magic and soon ...



Voila!!! One knackered munchkin.




Had a lovely time in Christchurch. Met up with Margaret and Steve who were just back from Ireland and still feeling a bit jetlagged. Such a lovely couple and so easy to talk too. And so young too!!!!! We must catch up again. The only problem is Margaret, we forgot to take the obligatory bloggers photo!!!! We'll have to rectify that next time.

Well it's lunch time for me so I'm off to grab my chicken salad.

Ciao

xxx

Friday, July 30, 2010

Yesterdays weigh in ....

I weighed in yesterday and there was no change in the scales. So I’m still the same.

I had a shocking week. I just wasn’t organized at all. We went over to Tauranga last weekend to see my mum who had just got out of hospital and we thought we’d do our groceries there before we headed home. We took a leisurely stroll around the supermarket and I got everything we needed, all my breakfast, lunch and dinner for the next week. Went to pay for it and the machine couldn’t read my card. So the checkout operator kept swiping it and swiping it, put it in a plastic bag/ paper etc . Still couldn’t read it. I said I’d go and get the cash out of the ATM no problem. So off I go – half way through processing it spat my card out and told me my card was damaged and invalid. Buggar, cause it was new. I couldn’t use my other card because the mortgage had just come out. In the meantime the queue at the checkout had grown. I was so embarrassed. I said sorry and we left. I felt about two inches tall. On phoning the bank they said that the terminal was faulty and it had damaged the magnetic stripe. I’d need a new card. A week later I’m still waiting for my new card. So frustrating.

Anyhow moving on …

I’m all prepared for the next week. I’m getting serious.

It’s a gorgeous day here today. The sun is shining. Spring is in the air. The daphne is blooming. I’m relaxed and distressed and feeling the best I have in a long time. Really looking forward to the weekend.

Ciao



Eating for yesterday ...
BREAKFAST – 2 x toast with marmite
LUNCH – Baby green salad with sliced hot chicken breast
SNACK - None
DINNER – pork stir fry
WATER - 3 glasses
EXERCISE – TBA

SW 80.8 kg
CW 79.5 kg
GW 65kg (For the moment)

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Seven years ago tonight ....

Seven years ago tonight …

I knocked on a door. Seven years ago Mr T opened that door and I walked in.

I learnt two things from that night.

- Your life can change in an instant.
- That there is a big difference between loving someone and being “in” love with someone.

Seven years on and I’m still madly “in” love with the man.

Seven years on and we’re still having an affair.

Seven years ago our kids were 5, 8,15,16,17,18.

Four are adults now. Their passage through teenage hood was like being on a rollercoaster. Up one minute and hurtling downhill in a spiral the next. Two to go.

We’re survived marriage settlements, custody battles, kids, ex’s, starting our own business and having a wonderful wedding and honeymoon.

The next generation has already begun.

For the last seven years there have been so many dramas. Many thought we’d never go the distance. But all the dramas did was just make us stronger as a couple. We’ve made many wonderful happy memories. We’ve shared everything.

Tomorrow will be day one of our eighth year. We survived our seven year itch. Just as well Mr T knows how to scratch any itch.

Love you Mr T. Here’s to the next seven.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Bad choice .....

Last week 79.8 kg
This week 79.5 kg

300 gms loss
14.5 kg to go


Mmmm I figure that if I hadn't had fish and chips last night and snuck in a late night snack of one of those big cookies I might of had a better loss.

All in all it was a good week.

This week, I'm going to try really hard to drink lots of water. I actually do feel a little bit dehydrated some times. I'm going to visualise my body as a sponge, lol.

Gotta get outta here. Have a late meeting to go too.

Ciao

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

What I learnt ....

When I was going through my ravenous period recently I thought I would opt for something that was going to be low in points and a more healthier snack. I chose cup a soups and crackers. You think those would be good options right. Well yes they are. If it's only 1 serve. When Jackie and I had lunch a week or so ago I gave her the details off the back of the packs to check the points value of them. Came back 2.5pts for the soup and 1.5 for 4 crackers. I was having 3 - 4 serves a day. Shite that was nearly my whole days points. Easy to see how the weight was sneaking back on. Writing it down exposes the hidden "extras" which makes it easier to make better choices. I feel that's what I'm doing now.

I'm still weighing daily. Daily weighing keeps me honest.

And this gorgeous little cutie keeps me smiling - day after day, after day .......


Thursday, July 15, 2010

Weigh in ..... and it's good news

Last week 80.8 kg
This week 79.8 kg

1.0 kg loss
14.8 kg to go

I wasn't going to post just how much I weighed now. But then I thought if I didn't let you guys know then who am I accountable too. Just ME. And if I have a bad week I just won't post the results. Well that's wrong. I have to be made accountable. That's one of the reasons why going to a meeting and getting weighed is a positive thing. Helps keep us on track. I mean I don't think you lot are going to give me crap, you'll give me support, won't you. So every Thursday I will record my weight - good or bad.

Since having my op I am sleeping so much better. I have not had an asthma attack for so long, I can't even remember when the last one was. My blood pressure is NORMAL. My giving up smoking has had a couple of slips but I've always got right back on track. I have a LOT more energy. Overall I feel pretty damn good.

Home is great. The kids are great. In fact Mr T and I are really enjoying them all at the moment, lol. They're all working, they're happy, no dramas, no problems. What more can you ask for.

I'm handling this winter a lot better than last. We've only just had the cold snap in the past three weeks or so. I can live with that. The days are getting a little bit longer. Spring isn't far away.

So now I'm rambling, so I'll leave and go do some work. Catch ya later.

Ciao

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Sometimes I feel like ...



All of the above,lol.

I meant to start my journal over the weekend but it didn't quite happen. I'd left my book at work. Real handy that was. But I wasn't naughty over the weekend.

I've actually made myself have breakfast the last couple of days and I don't know why but it has kept me quite full till lunchtime. Normally if I eat breakfast, I keep eating right through the day. I don't know why it's different now or even if it will last but while I get myself back on track it's a bonus and I'll take it.

They say that those who write down what they eat in a journal are more likely to succeed. I know I can succeed because I've done it before. I lost 12 kgs in just under 3 months. I succeeded because I kept on track and never lost sight of the goal I'd set. Now I have a hard time keeping my sights set on anything longer than a couple of weeks or so. I very easily veer off course. Must be old age. Maybe alzheimers is setting in. So hopefully writing it all down is going to stop me from veering off track and keeping that goal in sight.

Not only am I writing down what I eat but I also what I'm thinking/doing/ or feeling. I had a minor victory yesterday. I was cleaning up after a meeting and putting away the biccies, I kept two chocolate macaroons out, put the rest away. I turned back, looked at them and told myself put them back you don't need them. And I did. I felt good about it too. Today I wrote "Exercise willpower!!!" So far I haven't had too.

I'm also weighing myself daily - in kilos and in pounds and recording it in my little book.. This is what works for me. This morning it's down so things ARE working. Thursdays are going to be my weigh day and I'll record it on the sidebar.

My first mini goal is a 5% loss which is 76.7. Followed by a 5 kg loss of 75.8. I'm not going to get ahead of myself, I'll achieve these and then set the next goals.


And look what else is moving .... here comes trouble. He's crawling now and quite determined. There's mischief in those eyes. He's also good at giving your face a good pummelling, ah I mean massage. Grabs a nose, cheeks, lips hell whatever he can grab and contorts is into many different angles.

But he's still gorgeous.




Ciao




Thursday, July 8, 2010

New day, new start, new beginning ....

When I met Mr T seven years ago I weighed 65kg.

Today I weighed 80.8kg.

I AM GOING TO LOSE 15.8 KG BEFORE THE END OF THE YEAR.

Starting right now !!!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Tonight I'm going to be .....

A domestic goddess.


That's right, thats me.

I've had a busy lunchbreak today. I've been shopping and put a bit of a ding in my card. I've been looking for ages for a new duvet set for our bedroom for ages but I've never found anything that I like. Until this week. I ummed and ahhed for a bit, checked with Mr T and made up my mind to buy it. It's a nice burgundy red with gold embossed stitching around the edge. The one we have now can go on Krystals bed. School hols means she'll be here on Saturday. So I also needed some more winter sheets (lord they're expensive even on sale) and some more towels.

So tonight I'm going home to do washing and cleaning, set up my bed with the my new set and also cook my husband a lovely dinner.

I'm still trying to get back on track with my food but its a battle. I cook healthy meals and I'm still having my soups. But I still feel ravenous at times. That's where I'm falling down, my portion sizes are getting bigger again. I should grab myself a notebook and write everything down that goes into my mouth and give myself a wake up call.

But tonight I'm going to be a domestic goddess. We have no kids for the next two nights so we'll make the most of it. A lovely dinner and snuggle into bed and relax in peace.

Okay, I'm out of here. Ciao

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Stocking up ....

Thanks for the tips and advice. I'm taking it all on board.

I've just been to the supermarket and stocked up. I've bought a tub of natual yoghurt and ww fruit salad, ww baked beans, cup of soups and crackers to leave here at work.

I have a little notebook that I will use to write down what's slipping past my lips over the next few days. I've started drinking water again as I've been quite thirsty lately so its helping quenching the thirst. But I won't drink water while I'm eating. I remember being at a conference where the one of the speakers was explaining all the functions of the liver and one of the things she said was that drinking water while eating actually neutralises the acid that helps with the digestic process which means that what you eat stays around in your gut for a lot longer trying to digest the food. Do you think it makes sense. Well I think it does. She said its better to have a glass of wine with meals because it already has its own acidity. Well, I'm a believer.

Oh and yes Chris I do on occasion stand in front of the mirror naked and frighten myself. Arrrgghhh!!!!!! But some days when I'm thinking properly in the brain I look and can actually picture myself thin. It probably helps too that with my glasses off everything is a blur and looks a bit smaller lol.

I think its about finding the right switch to turn on/off. It might be different things for different people but I've been thinking and for me I think it's a happy switch within me that has blown a fuse. It's hard to write especially as Mr T might read this and think I'm not happy. But it's not him - it's me. I'm a natural born worrier. I worry about everything and everybody. I'm also very strong and determined and always find a way of solving things. I have a face that I wear that those close to me who rely on me see alls good then I have the other invisible one that slowly tears away inside me and causes the stress, the insomnia, the worry and just builds and builds.

When I'm carefree with no hassles I just thrive. The happiness that builds up inside overrides anything else. It;s like a magnet and being contagious so everybody around you is in the same frame of mind. Must be all those endorphins bouncing off of each other. It's my happy place.

I think for me just sitting here writing this has made me realise what my trigger is. I need my happy place. I only have one hurdle to overcome before I can call in the electrician and get my switch reconnected.

Until then I will just have to bide my time.

Friday, June 18, 2010

I can't stop eating ....

I've put on nearly 2 kgs since my op. I have to stop right now. I was going so well and now I've stuffed it right up.

You know how you're not suppose to eat before your op well thats okay but the time I came out I hadn't eaten for 24 hours not even a drink and I was famished. Everyone around me was eating and I could of killed for food. When I finally got a plate all that was on my tray was about two tablespoons of some kind of stew, a tablespoon of pumpkin and something else that I can't even remember. The kids brought me up a subway, thank god. But as soon as I got home I was just like eating, eating, eating. And of course we had a few crap meals while I was recuperating.

My suits are a bit snugger and I'm feeling blah. I just got to find that mojo again but it's bloody hiding from me. Please any advice or tips are grealy needed right now. Help ......

Friday, May 21, 2010

Post from the other side ....

Gosh haven't I been quiet. Well I've been indiposed. Guess what. I finally had my op. I had my cyst and my ovary taken out. Lol, I've even got a picture of it. It looks like a bloody ostrich egg. And it had grown. No wonder I've been in a bit of pain the past couple of months. I didn't want to say anything on here because everytime I did - it got cancelled. So I stayed quiet.

Anyway on the road to recovery. With lots of gorgeous cuddles from this man below.




He's such a little wriggler now though. Keeps wanting to bounce all over nan. Getting heaps of chuckles now. The bonus is he's moved now to just down the road from nan. Nana's happy about that much I can tell you.


Had a photo taken a couple of weeks ago for a press release. Made me think I've got to get my hair cut.




I've just finished my first full day back at work and it wasn't too bad so I must be on the mend. My plan now is turn this little dumpling into a nice slender celery stick.

Hope you've all been going well. Will catch up on everyone's posts in the next few days and do a better update.

Anyway this was just a quickie to let you know I'm back .... for good.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Surgery a no go

Guess what, after getting the all go from the Doctor and the Nurse at the hospital, the anesthesist decided it was still too risky for me so it was canned the day before. I bad a good blubber cause I'm just so over this. Now its been set for the 3rd June. Yeah right. I won't go getting my hopes up.

On the brighter side - I'm feeling fantastic. I'm spending a bit more time in the kitchen making casseroles for Mr T for his lunches and making yummy dinners. I'm keeping myself really busy in the evenings to counteract the "no smoking" and my house and me are enjoying the benefits. Getting to do jobs that always keep getting put off. It's like every area in my life is getting organised and sorted again. I'm loving it. And I can't explain the energy I have. Maybe I can become the new Martha Stewart!!!!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Hello, I'm still here, is anyone else ....

It’s hard to see where the last few weeks have gone as so much has happened.

We successfully managed to move our workshop and everything is all up and running smoothly now. It’s a mission that I’m glad is over. What a lot of hard work.

The past three weeks I’ve spent quite a bit of time at the Doc’s getting everything sorted out. I had a heart risk assessment done and it showed that I had the heart of a 75 year old. Talk about a wake up call. The good news is that I can get it to where it should be. Making changes to my lifestyle and medication will make a big difference. It seeed like everytime I went for a visit I’d come out with another prescription and more blood tests. My blood pressure checked out normal this morning (120/78) so the Dr gave me the ok to go ahead with surgery on Thursday. I phoned the hospital updated them and they’ve given me the ok to. So unless something urgent comes up – Thursday is the day.

Through all the dramas there have been some positives. All bloods have come back in the normal range. Cholesterol, bad cholesterol, blood sugar etc. My cholesterol could come down a wee bit but it’s within limits.

You want to know what the big news is though. I’ve stopped smoking. I wasn’t a big smoker but nonetheless I still did smoke. I’ve known in the back of my mind the day was coming to call it quits. Having the high blood pressure along with the asthma told me I no longer had any options. It was a big ask considering I’ve smoked since my late teens. So a week on, I’m feeling great, so much more energy and ready to tackle just about anything.

So that’s where I am. Big changes happening in my life but the rewards will be well worth it. Now I need to focus on my diet – because I have to bring my BMI down.

Time to bring out the books again.

Friday, April 23, 2010

I've been rescheduled . . .

I went in for my pre admin check for surgery next week and my blood pressure was sky high. 200/100. They were going to wait until Friday before making a decision whether it was safe to operate but I decided to cancel and get my blood pressure normal before any surgery happens. The risks are too high. But I do have a new date - 13th May. I spoke to my mum last night (my birth mother) and she is going to right down her history and all the medications shes on so I can pass it on to my Dr. She does have a history of high blood pressure, heart attacks, and she had bypass surgery about ten years ago. The dr will know what to look out for I guess.

So there's big changes that will be happening with health and excercise and general well being. In some ways I'm looking forward to it. But I feel a lot more positive now. Had a pity party the other night but I'm over it. Time to do something about it.

I'm off next week as we're moving and I've also got a champagne breakfast on wednesday for 250 people that I'm organising. Trying not to sweat about that either.

Anyway, onwards and upwards. I'll post some more photos next time. Have a great weekend all.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Lotsa news ....

Go grab a cuppa.

But first a couple of pics of the boy because he's so damn gorgeous.




Whoa Dad, what the ...




Ha,ha, that's fun let's do it again...




He's just adorable.

And breaking news ...... Mr T and I are expecting Grandbaby No.2 at the end of November. We are rapt and over the moon. Kelz is having a baby. Mr T is convinced it's going to be a girl. Lol, there's going to be no stopping him this Christmas. Santa is making a comeback. (honest, he pretty damn neared cried last year when Josh told him there was no Santa)

Never a dull moment thats for sure. Been meaning to do a quick post for a while but not quite getting there. Too many things happening.

Everything was pottering along very nicely until a couple of weeks ago. When we originally started our business four years ago we took out a two year lease with right of renewal. Then the building was sold and once our lease ended the new landlord wouldn't renew our lease instead put us on a month by month. The reason being he had now acquired the whole block and he had plans on developing it. We noticed things were happening earlier in the year when the surveyors were doing there bit but we were told not to worry . It would be a while if anything happened and he had another building which we could move too.

Well, two Fridays ago he dropped in and handed us a letter. An eviction letter!!! We had to be out by the end of the month. Three weeks. He did say not to read too much into the letter as it was just a formality. But still, we had to move with buggar all notice. He did offer us another building which would have been good - but, he was planning to pull that one down to in six months. Arrgghh.

Sometimes things happen for a reason. That's what I believe and this time it's certainly true. Saturday morning we drove round all the industrial areas looking at available workshops. There were a few. Some were just way too expensive. We did see one that we liked. Anyhow Mr T phoned the agent and yep it was a bit pricey but he was going to have a look around for us and get back on Monday which he did. Seemed like it wasn't as expensive as first thought and Mr T went and had a look and yes that was the one he wanted. Only a little bit more than what we're paying now and nearly double the work area which is great and it's tidy has many extra's. After some negotiation Mr T managed to bring the monthly lease down and also get a month's free rent for setting up costs. We signed up last Tuesday. I couldn't believe it all happened so fast. The new landlord is just fantastic. He's certainly going out of his way to help us as much as he can. I know that he's probably had it empty for a while but still ....

So what was bad is now very good. The downside is - do you know how hard it is to move a workshop that is full of machinery, alloy, joinery, rubbers, glass, screws, nails etc. Bloody difficult. I'm taking next week off so I can get my office sorted. We're hoping to have everything in by the weekend.

This afternoon I go for my pre admin checkup at the hospital. All going well I'll have surgery next Thursday. For those that don't know late last year I ended up in ER in pain and they found a cyst on my ovary the size of my fist. Freaky. The good thing is that it was all clear fluid. Not lumpy. So I am having keyhole surgery to remove it. The only thing is that if they can't remove it from the ovary then they will have to open me up which means my recovery will be a lot longer. That's the part I'm not looking forward to. I've never really been sick in my life and I've never been in hospital apart from having the kids so in some ways it is a wee bit daunting for me. But it has to come out. Lets hope I make it to surgery this time and they don't postpone me again.

Weight wise I really haven't been watching what I eat. A few takeaways, lots of carbs so I ventured onto the scales this morning and I'm up about a kg which is okay. So I'm going to try and get myself back into some kind of a routine before the 1 kg turns into another 5kgs.

We've been rather spoilt with Lucas lately. We've had him every weekend. He's getting to know us quite well. His face beams when he sees us. How cool is that.

It was mum's birthday a couple of Sundays ago so the whole family went to Tauranga and had a picnic lunch at Memorial. So I'll leave you with some more pics.

The oldest and the youngest .... My mum and Lucas









Lucas and Pop .....





Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Allergic to housework ....

With my surgery date set for the 29th April (fingers & toes crossed) I want to do my best to shed as much weight as I can before then. I had a couple of very bad days/nights with my asthma over the long weekend. I feel if I could just lose some weight around my waist and my chest it would help so much.

I spent a whole day cleaning and pottering around home and suffered that night and the next day gasping for air. My inhalers didn’t seem to be giving me the relief that I needed. Then I came right and spent the day out in the garden. I felt like I had a lot of energy. The next day – wham. I had to keep myself calm and concentrate on my breathing otherwise I’d lose it. No wonder I get so exhausted. When I’m like this just hanging out the clothes leaves me breathless. This is so not me.

When I was first diagnosed with asthma my Doctor told me that the asthma doesn’t have to control me. I have been pretty good lately, but last week despite my aversion to needles I allowed the nurse at the Doctor’s surgery to give me the flu injection. I’ve since developed a cough and am a bit stuffed up with nasal congestion. I no this is not helping me so I’m wondering whether or not this is a side effect of the injection and maybe wait a bit before going back to the Doctors. I think if I have no improvement by the end of the week I’ll go back. All my sympathies go to parents who have young ones who are asthmatic. It must be so terrible and scary for them. I know, I’m an adult but I can get a bit sooky at times.

So yeah I’m feeling a tad apprehensive about the op so I’m doing everything I possibly can before hand.


But despite my breathless moments I had a great Easter. This weekend saw our family back together. About six months after our wedding we had a fallout with two of our boys. We stood our ground and applied the tough love principle. One came back about a year ago the other has been building the bridges since late last year and on Sunday he came out for our family dinner. And it was a success.

We also got to babysit Lucas again. I swear he’s grown since last week. He has another check up this week so hope all will be good.

Righto another day nearly done and dusted. Eating has been good apart from that chocolate macaroon at morning tea.

Tomorrow is another day.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Getting back into my stride ...

I'm slowly getting back into my routine. With winter fast approaching I want to be able to get into my jeans comfortably.

I'm looking to downsize the my waist, hips and bum. Love the thighs to go as well but from experience that's the last place it shift. So I might just add a few situps into my daily routine. I'm also going to add a few carbs into my diet. I need to keep the bowels regular. So today I had a sandwich and it really filled me up.

I'm looking forward to Easter and a four day break. The chocolate eggs have never worried me but this year I'm not even fussed if I have Hot Cross Buns. Now that's unheard of.

Daylight saving ends this weekend so that means pretty soon it's going to get real dark early and cold fast. So the only thing I can do is grab that extra hour of sleep and pull the blankets up and snuggle down under the covers.

Not much else to say but I'll leave you with some photos. Poor Lucas. Has to put up with all the baby talk and flashing cameras. Little man knows when to smile - when the cameras not pointing at him. Snuck a couple in though.















Ciao

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