Friday, November 27, 2009

It's a gorgeous day ... I should be at the beach or fishing

Instead I'm sitting here at my desk, looking out the window at the brilliant blue sky and thinking WHY am I here. Then I look to my right and see the piles of applications that have to be processed, that's why.

I did write a post earlier in the week but then lost it then life dramas happen and I never got round to doing another one.

So firstly weighty matters.

I didn't make it to weight watchers on Tuesday because above said dramas. It would have been truthful to say that I wasn't as excited about it as what I was the week before. There were quite a few reasons.

1. I didn't track.
2. I didn't drink as much water.
3. I didn't always eat my 3x meal a day.

plus the excuses

4. I had our work xmas dinner
5. Premenstrual week and TOM - really bloaty and heavy feeling.
Should have drunk more water
6. Have felt ravenous because of TOM and gave in to temptation occasionally.

I did get on the scales when I got home though and they showed roughly the same as the previous week give or take 200 gms.

But I have been good this week. I am drinking water. I am tracking and I am eating properly. Although I'm eating my breakfast a bit later at work. The best part is that the ravenous hunger I had before has gone. Thank God for that.

Some good things tho are already starting to happen. I don't feel quite so "chesty". I noticed the other day that my boobs aren't falling out of my bra but sitting properly like they should. When I'm not feeling bloaty my tummy feels "flatter". My jeans are a little looser. I haven't had to use my inhaler for the last few days. Not sure if this is good or bad because I'm suppose to be taking the preventalin daily. I guess the good thing is that I haven't felt that I needed too.

My incidental exercise this week has been cleaning the pool. Phew what a work out that is. I was going to mow the lawns as well but Nick bet me to it. Have to admit it was a nice surprise coming home to.

In other news I go for my scan this afternoon. Then I have my followup with the specialist next week and I'll find out for sure if I'm going to have surgery. Just wish they'd hurry up as I really don't want to be mucking around this close to Christmas neither do I want to spend my holiday recuperating. I want to enjoy it.

Couple of dramas happening with a couple of kids. Trying not to stress out but damn it can be hard sometimes.

On the plus side Lucas is doing really well and is starting to put on weight.
5lbs 10oz. Nearly a newborn weight. He's three months and three weeks now. He had his first outing at the lake the other day. He needs a bit of sunshine and fresh air.

I have photos on my camera to post but Mr T revamped our computer again and we haven't got round to loading the camera software yet. Will have to make sure this weekend.

Anyway it's gorgeous outside. If you don't have to be indoors - then go out and enjoy it. Have a superfantastic weekend everyone.


Friday, November 20, 2009

Ravenous ....

The past two days have been shocking. It's like overnight someone turned on a switch and I'm battling the urge to devour whatever I can. Temptation bet me on Wednesday night as I consumed crackers and dip following our meeting. Felt a bit gutted about letting myself down so easy. Then I thought it was Day 1 of a new week so I can turn it around. So I'm back on track and I'm just going to have to be stronger in resisting those temptations.

Another consolation is that TOM is due in the next day or two. I'm hoping that will see a downward slide on the scales and give my motivation an extra burst.

Over the weekend I'm going to try out the 97% fat and guilt free bacon as a sunday morning brekkie. I'm loving mixing my foods up a bit. Last night we had scallops and prawns for dinner. yummy. Mr T is enjoying the food. He's put on 4 kgs. He's not complaining either. God knows he can certainly handle a bit of beef on his frame.

Not much else to say so will get on and do some work.

Have a great weekend. Ciao.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

A great first week ....

I lost 2.2 kg. I'm stoked. What a way to start this journey again.

The one thing I did right this week was I actually ate breakfast. I had 2 pieces of toast with ww baked beans most mornings. I found it was filling and kept me going till lunchtime. I had 3 meals a day and at least 1 snack a day. I was even able to fit some wines in and stay well within points. I did not feel deprived at all and I think that was the secret.

Today I worked out I need to lose another 2 kg to reach my 5% body loss. But then to keep my feet well and truly grounded I figured out I need to lose between 25 and 30% of body weight to get to goal.

The only way to get there is to keep on going and don't give up.

Better rush - I'm about ready to Chair a meeting. Catch you soon. Ciao.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Quick help please ....

Can anyone tell me if we can buy WW Bacon here yet???

Weigh in later today. I have tracked all week, stayed within points - even managed to save some. I haven't claimed for bonus points as I'm not quite how they work with this plan. I think that comes in week 3. I have drunk my water, some days more than others. Saturday I drunk 4 litres.

Today I'm feeling great. Last night I had the first twitches that TOM isn't too far away and I was thinking great just in time to stuff up my great week. But so what. The consequences of TOM NOT coming would be a damn sight more catastrophical than whether I lose a few grams or not aye.

I'm thinking and acting positive. At the weekend I told myself, next week when I wear these jeans again they aren't going to be as snug as they are now. And you know what. Already they're not.

Okay ... better go do some work. Will post weigh in results later.

Monday, November 16, 2009

A new chapter ....

You may think stupid or not but I was really excited about joining up again. I'm determined to lose weight this time but I know I can't do it by myself. I need to be held accountable. I tend to cheat if I can get away with it, lol.

I was quite blown away by all the information that you get given in your first week. I've taken the whole week to read through it all a few times and plan my meals. I'm actually eating three meals a day and having one snack a day. I could have more but the truth is - I don't feel hungry. I've been spending a bit more time in the kitchen and experimenting with salads and meals. The good thing is Mr T is eating too.

About the only thing that I wasn't too crash hot about was the scales ..... I got a terrible shock when the numbers flashed up. But then again I have to remember I always weigh first thing in the morning, with just my nightie after I've been to the loo. Now I'm weighing in at 5.30pm at night with all my clothes on AND in my shoes as well!!!. Naturally I came home and weighed myself on my scales so I could see if there was a much of a variance and there isn't.

But nevermind the evil deed has been done and it's all down from here. I just can't tell you how determined I am and how positive I'm feeling - this time I will succeed.

I'm looking forward to weigh in tomorrow night. I've been a good girl and I've really enjoyed my first week.

In other news, I have to go back for another scan in a fortnight. If the cyst is still there then they will do keyhole surgery. I'm not going to stress out about anything. All my blood tests came back negative. There was nothing sinister showing.

Today is Mr T's birthday. I'm not allowed to tell you how old he. I just said concentrate on how you feel not the number. We're just going to have dinner at home tonight and we'll wait till over.

That's about it for now. I'll let you know how I get on after weigh in.

Ciao for now.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Tonights the night ....

I'm joining weightwatchers again. I'm looking forward to getting my first weeks book and reading up on everything. I did a very healthy shop at the weekend so I'll be able to stick to points for the rest of the week.

Thursday I go to the gynae outclinic and I guess I'll be told what my options are regarding this cyst. I was at the Drs this morning, Josh has been unwell for the last couple of days. She told me she'd seen the report and I said they never really told me what my options were likely to be. She said simple - surgery.

The only time I've been in hospital is when I had the kids. I've never had surgery before so it is a wee bit daunting for me. Especially when a few people have come to me and told me their stories. However, I'm not them, I'm me. I've always been healthy and have never been one to let being sick get me down for long. So I'll just wait and see what Thursday brings.

Anyhoos in the meantime I'm looking forward to tonight.


Friday, November 6, 2009

Can't wait . . .

to join weightwatchers next week. I'm starting to crave that accountability. I also need to have the meal planner to kickstart me off for the first few weeks. The thing is I'll be able to share everything from Day 1 with Mr T, so he'll be learning along with me. I had a small loss of 500 gms this week. I was hoping for a little bit more, but it's still less of me. I really struggled this week with my water and my exercise wasn't at all flash.

In fact exercise has been put on the back burner for a bit. I woke up with abdominal pain on Tuesday. When it hadn't got better on Wednesday morning I popped over to the doctors and next thing you know I'm in hospital. Ultra sound showed I had a 7.8cm cyst. They let me go home, I told them I was going anyway, seeing as my bloods came back showing no sign of infection. But I'm due back early next week when they'll have a full report on the scan and decide what they're going to do with me. They weren't very forthcoming with any answers the other night.

I have another busy weekend. Have a Presidents forum meeting all day tomorrow for my admin group. Then Sunday I really need a lovely sunny day at home to garden and get the lawns done. Then the kids are coming out for dinner. This will be Lucas's first visit to Nana's house. Looking forward to that.

Ciao for now ....

Here's Lucas with Winnie and Mickey. Nearly as big as them now.
"Alright, which one of you knicked me sock"

and here he is wearing some big boys clothes now. In the hoodie and trackies nana bought him the day he was born. Size 0000.

Happy . . .

Life is great, things are going way better than expected ( I hope I don't bloody jinx it)  we are good, we are happy, we are relaxed....